Drabbles

[alwaysjbj]

Lullaby's drabbles written for open_on_sunday

2 drabbles, both Spike and both angsty. No warnings.



No rest for the wicked.

They tell him repeatedly how evil he is. They should know. Words of accusation, of hurt, pain and torment whirl around him, suffusing the air. Others whisper sweet nastinesses in his ear. They anger quickly, tell him what he already knows; he’ll never be good or pure enough—never be what she needs.

Curling tightly, knees against his chest, hands covering his ears in a vain attempt to block them out, his eyes close. Rocking gently he hums a soft, sweet lullaby trying to not see the twisted, bitter face of the woman who used to sing it to him.

Sleep my love.

He didn’t know why he came each night. Knew she wasn’t really there beneath the blanket of sod and earth. And yet here he was, just as he’d been every night since they’d laid her here, just as he undoubtedly would be every night hereafter.

His fingers lightly trailed the cold stone to its base; such a little thing, a nothing, really, to mark the life of one so vibrant. He stretched out on the damp pre-dawn ground, hand gently caressing the soft grass above her resting place. His deep rich voice hushed as he sang her gently to sleep.

Comments

[mefiant-aus.livejournal.com]

Two drabbles *squee* love em sweetie. Glad I check the computer before I walked out the door to work.

[alwaysjbj.livejournal.com]

Thank you my dear!! And thanks for the idea for the 2nd one!! **hugs**

[slaymesoftly.livejournal.com]

Lovely, just lovely.

[alwaysjbj.livejournal.com]

Thanks Patti! I'm glad you enjoyed them.

[sandy-s.livejournal.com]

These are exquisite, hun...I love the first one...poor Spike. And the second is beautiful as well...I can almost feel the grass beneath his hand over her grave...wow...

[alwaysjbj.livejournal.com]

Thank you sweetie! I am glad you liked them.

And you are SOOO not a bad friend... you've been awfully busy!

Just... A Grain of Sand by Always_jbj would be lovely!! Thank you! **hugs**

[sandy-s.livejournal.com]

P.S. I'm a BAD friend...what do you want on your fic banner, sweetie?

[spikesdeb.livejournal.com]

*sob* The second one is just beautiful. The way he strokes the grass....

The first one is great too, but the second one just calls to me. Thanks!

[alwaysjbj.livejournal.com]

Thanks Deb! The second one made me a little teary writing it! **sniff** and it was something I could just picture Spike doing.

And the first one... my heart just went out to poor Spike when he was in that basement, I couldn't understand how (in the show) Buffy could leave him there for so long... she must have seen how much he was suffering!

And can I say... a draw!!! I got my miracle after all!!! **happy dance**

Oh... I am halfway thru your smut fic... and LOVING it sooo much!!! **sigh** it is going to take forever to read all the submissions!

[spikesdeb.livejournal.com]

Hee! I'll grant you that, a miracle it was - called Mr Ricky Ponting I believe!!!

Thanks hun - hope you enjoy the rest. And I know what you mean - I've only read Schez's and the one writen by Icemink for me and I want to get to the other ones soooooooooo badly! Looks like I won't be leaving the house at the weekend again..........:D

*hugs*

[alwaysjbj.livejournal.com]

Yep... Ricky Ponting is quite often a miracle in his own right!! lol.

**sobs** I don't know who was writing for me... but so far... nothing!

[spikesdeb.livejournal.com]

Awwww - well mine was late so don't fret just yet! *crosses fingers*

[selene2.livejournal.com]

OMG! Thes BOTH are so very intense! I loved them both! Simply fantastic!

[alwaysjbj.livejournal.com]

Thank you sweetie!!! Intense is what I was aiming for.... so YAY!!!

[kazzy-cee.livejournal.com]

OOoooo I love these! So sweet and romantic. *sigh*

[alwaysjbj.livejournal.com]

Thanks! I am glad you enjoyed them... I don't see the 'sweet and romantic' myself... but I am very glad you enjoyed them. lol.

[amybnnyc.livejournal.com]

Lovely drabbles, sweetie! :D

And look--I fondly dedicate my icon to you. :-*

[alwaysjbj.livejournal.com]

Thank you my dear... why are you never around when the drabble!muse strikes?? LOL... you KNOW I am never sure about anything until after YOU have read it! Damned Time zones!!

[talesofspike.livejournal.com]

No.1 - Just plain disturbing. No. 2 Soothing enough to quiet my little brain after reading No.1

Thanks, hon!

[alwaysjbj.livejournal.com]

I actually don't know which one tugged at my heart more when I was writing it. I just wanted to hold poor insane Spike in the first one and make it all better for him. But the second one had me teary when writing it because I could actually picture it being something he would do... and my heart just went out to him.

[talesofspike.livejournal.com]

I think (and I know this sounds strange) but I think it's partly because I know that in so many ways Spike's life actually got worse when Buffy came back.

When she was dead he could grieve and no one had any problems with the feelings he had for her and he could do things for her that she would never have allowed him to do in like (in canon anyway). I think just being able to care for her like that would give him a contentment that he didn't otherwise know.