A couple of Birthday wishes and a ficlet

[alwaysjbj]

Wishing a VERY Happy Birthday to two lovely ladies! sandy_s and appomattoxco

I have a little ficlet for you... the first half for sandy_s is Buffy pov 

The second half (which will be along as soon as I iron out a few problems) is for appomattoxco and is Spike pov.   Melissa I TRIED to write some Ganya but it just wouldn't happen...

*hugs you both* I hope you have a fabulous day!

S7 ficlet set once they arrive home after the opening sequence in Potential and going AR from there.

Thank you to the lovely slaymesoftly for beta'ing!

Words Unspoken



Why was it so difficult? She hesitated, her hand hovering uncertainly over the doorknob. Her heart hammered in her chest. Why was everything with them always so difficult?

Steeling herself she opened the door and descended the stairs. The quiet rattle of the chains he insisted that he wear preceded the deep purr of his voice. “Slayer. To what do I owe the pleasure, love?”

She walked forward slowly, watching her feet and resolutely not looking at the enquiring blue eyes, until she stood only feet away from the narrow cot. “I’m sorry,” she whispered, knowing that he would hear her. Only then did she look up hesitantly to gauge his reaction.

He was sitting up, his back pressed against the wall, legs akimbo in the casual sprawl that was just so very Spike and she had to forcibly suppress the nostalgic smile that tugged at the corners of her lips. His head tilted enquiringly and a small confused frown creased his brow. “Sorry?” The frown deepened as he sat up, leaning forward and looking at her intently in that oh-so-disturbing way he had that made her feel like she was naked, or worse—transparent. Spike could see through her in a way that no one else could. “What you got to be sorry for, Slayer?”

“I know…” She hesitated, dropping her eyes once more to the safety of the floor before continuing, “I know that you don’t want me touching you. And I get that, after… everything.” She swallowed hard and raised her eyes once more to meet his puzzled gaze. “I… It’s just…” Her hands twitched at her side and she quickly fisted them, pressing them hard against her legs to keep from reaching for him. “Difficult,” she finished. “Tonight… what I did… I shouldn’t have. I’m sorry.”

She turned, escaping up the stairs before the tears she’d battled for half the night could betray her. Slamming the door behind her, unmindful of the sleeping bodies strewn around the house, she fled to the relative safety of her room and threw herself on her bed, her face buried in the pillow as she gave vent to her sorrow. Tonight in the cemetery when he’d shied away from her touch—tonight she’d realised that she had truly lost him.

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Comments

[selene2.livejournal.com]

I really loved this! I can't wait for the next part. Really, really wonderful.

That was one of my favorite scenes in the show. I wanted to beat Rhona(?) for making a comment and breaking the two of them apart! Slayerettes-in-training! Can't live with them... Period!

*keeping my eyes peeled for the next part*

*huggles*

[alwaysjbj.livejournal.com]

Thanks, sweetie! I'm glad you liked it. The second half won't be along until I go through these dvd's to make sure that what I want to do works... and if not I will have to find a way around it. *sigh*

[kazzy-cee.livejournal.com]

Oh! So sad and sweet - looking forward to Spike's version.... OMG I miss this show!!!!

[alwaysjbj.livejournal.com]

Thanks, sweetie. Part 2 is up now, I hope you enjoy where it goes.

[amybnnyc.livejournal.com]

Oh, this is lovely, sweetie, if heartbreaking. I'm looking forward to the next bit! :)

[alwaysjbj.livejournal.com]

Thank you, my dear. Part two is up now... I hope it eases the heartbreak a little. I LOVE your icon!!!

[bearfacedcheek.livejournal.com]

Fabulous. A lovely ficlet.

[alwaysjbj.livejournal.com]

Thanks! It's all finished now.

[petzipellepingo.livejournal.com]

Awww... so bittersweet and sad. Very nice.

[alwaysjbj.livejournal.com]

Thanks, sweetie! Part 2 is up now.

[rachel2205.livejournal.com]

*weep* Aww, Buffy! You haven't lost him! He's just afraid. very nicely written, lady - and showing how Buffy can get things so right... and so wrong. Going to read pt 2 now.

[alwaysjbj.livejournal.com]

She really could get things so right and so wrong at the same time, couldn't she!? Poor Buffy. Thanks for the review.

[slaymesoftly.livejournal.com]

Lovely, sad, bittersweet - but you will make it all better, right?

[alwaysjbj.livejournal.com]

*wink* Trust me!

[prophecygirrl.livejournal.com]

Wow. I could hug you for writing a fic around that moment. So amazing. Your Buffy is very sweet. Here's hoping Spike finds the courage to go to her...

*runs off to the other part*

[alwaysjbj.livejournal.com]

Thanks, sweetie! I hope you enjoy part 2.

[jerusha]

Oh, poor Buffy... Very nice work.

[alwaysjbj.livejournal.com]

Thank you!

[sandy-s.livejournal.com]

Awww...hun! THANK YOU!!!!!!!!! *HUGS you* I haven't had time until now to read it, but I love it! :D I love all the details you put into each nuance of her reactions and actions and the beautiful words you used to describe her feelings. My heart hurts. *sniffles*

[alwaysjbj.livejournal.com]

Thank you, sweetie! And you are so very welcome. I'm glad you liked it... and the second half might make your heart hurt a little less. lol

I hope you had a wonderful day! *HUGE HUGS*

[sandy-s.livejournal.com]

I had a wonderful day...and I LOVE the pressie you gave me. Thank you so much. I hope you know how much I appreciate you. *HUGS*